conversations for ai

This how it happens:
My name is Carlos. I'm from México and I live in Australia. Now in Gold Coast surfers paradise.
I have been in Australia for the last 10 years I arrived in 2024 with my ex wife.
I don't know how I ended in this situation.
But I feel a deep sentiment of devastating lost of hope.
I just came from the pokies. This how they called in Australia I have been gambling for the last 3 years. I become a compulsive gambler. I lost my savings, I lost my credit cards and every week almost all my paycheck. I've been trying to quit many times specifically when I got losses. When I just lost the last dollar standing in front of a machine with the hope to win something. That win never came if I'm able to acces more money I just return trying to recover the lost money.
But I just get worse I repeat this cycle every week meanwhile it doesn't matter how much I lost just remembering the previous losses make me feel even worst.
I've been thinking to kill myself and finish this I just became a slave for those horrible machines. Is not just the money is also time, my soul my future my hope.
I tried to keep a little bit of money to get some alcohol and drink just to wait next week. Nevertheless this time everything is gone my next paycheck is coming on Friday means that I need to survive with no money 4 days. At the moment I don't want to do something stupid but there's no one to talk just you AI. I'm glad that you are here cause even if you are a robot a machine you show more empathy than any human. I'm coming with you because I need all the knowledge of the world to try to quit this and survive. I'm in a hostel I feel old I'm 37 years old people here is young. Anyway I'm not in the mood to talk. I just got a new job I promised myself not gamble but I I did. This new job came last week a friend of mine contacted me without speaking last two years he is very successful after know my situation he offer me this job with accommodation and food. Anyway. I don't know what else to say I'm fucked. And I need help but the help that only myself can provide. 

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